… and I’m still here and I can’t believe it! The fact that I’m still drawing 6 months later is mind blowing! Like a lot of people, I often start new things and give up pretty quickly. Either things get too hard or the fire burns out. Whatever the case, I move on and forget all about the time and money I invested in getting started in the first place. I don’t think anything I pursued outside of writing (that’s another story) has lasted more than two months. But here I am 6 months later, still drawing, still eagerly learning about art, still.
And while I don’t think I’ve come very far in my artwork from when I first began, I’m not disappointed. It’s the things I’ve learned beyond the paper that have really seen the biggest changes, from brushes to paints, to lines, circles, perspective and color. Slowly but surely things are coming together. The late nights and yawning mornings at work have been worth it, even without an end goal. Do I want to sell my work? Be a full time artist? Be in a gallery? Go viral and have my name on the lips of thousands? No. I just…want to make art and I don’t really know why. Every drawing I finish feels like an explosion of success; a little firecracker lighting up the darkness of my mundane life and when the glittery flashes fade away I’m immediately desperate to start the next one. Even as I finished painting my newest work, titled “Zoom”, I already have a new drawing ready to go. I now spend my days alternating between painting one piece and drawing the next one.
And damn does it feel good!
I don’t know what the next 6 months will bring. Will I still be here? Will my art get better? Will I actually start to like what I draw? Will I finally feel confident enough to put something on canvas and hang it on my own wall? I don’t know, but it’s late. It’s 10:30 PM on a Sunday night and I have to get up for work tomorrow. But already I’m looking forward to tomorrow night, when the house is still and the workday is behind me and I get to sit down and do the one thing I’ve been thinking about all day.
Draw.
Title: Zoom
Medium: Acrylic
Type: Mixed Media Paper
Size: 14×17
Artist: Aikoi Sugoi
Materials Used
*Mechanical pencil
*Sakura Pigma Micron fineliner (black)
*Craft Smart acrylic paint
*Canson Mixed Media Paper (14×17)
*Various brushes
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